I’m worth $1,604,107.08! How much are you worth?

Hahaha, that’s just…i don’t know what that is. Funny for sure, check it out.

Wish I had that much in a bank account somewhere! Maybe I do since i’m
worth that much…*tries to find a bank in zurich in her name* hehe.

I hope you are all having a wonderful day. I’m preparing to hear the
doorbell ring non stop for a few hours tonight. No candy for you kids.
I don’t even get any! eh, i think i’ll live. Happy Haloween everyone,
and in certain parts of the world Happy DST hehe.


“I’m awake in the afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
and it’s one of those moments
when everything is so clear

before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide ’cause it’s worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear

It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don’t you see I’m breaking down

lately, something here don’t feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind”


I forgot about this song till tonight. It’s called Half-Life by Duncan
Sheik. Guy has some amazing songs. His voice is almost entrancing. I
remember when i first heard him too. Barely Breathing, sometime in the
90’s.  Half-Life is a little less old and a little less well known
i think. But beautiful all the same.

Well, that’s enough for now. Later

And the xanga has now been fully regenerated. Yay. It’s been a very
xanga day for me. I redid Anthony’s (Negative_Space)  as well. I
think it looks good, as does mine. Wish i could move the damn xanga ad.
But i think i might give in and get premium soon. I hope you all like
it. The lyrics are from Hanson, the song is Broken Angel. Anyone else
wants a redo lemme know.

More some other time


I don’t get it. I got some good sleep last night yet I feel totally
exhausted, almost like i’ve been working too hard. Maybe it’s just so
close to that line with my life where I will change. Or people say I
will. Jury is still out in my opinion. I think i’ve been quite
different for some time now. I just get little credit for such things.
Eh, thus is life.

Right now i’m just listening to some music, chilling out and doing
pretty much nothing. For the first time in a while just sitting in the
dark, stillness of the evening. My emotional switch for winter has
taken place. I go through it every year. I start to wish for snow. I
dread it the rest of the year, but around this time i want it to come
so bad. The humble simplicity of quite all around. Waking up and
knowing something isn’t quite the same. The smell has changed. It’s
quiter than normal. Then i throw open my curtains to reveal a blanket
of blinding white all over the city. It’s soothing somehow.

This year has passed so quickly. To think, Halloween, Thanksgiving and
Christmas are right around the corner. *bright smile* I love this time
of year because i get to make these beautiful meals and sit down and
spend time with people I love more than I love myself. Granted by the
end of the day i’m confused, don’t know weather to expolde from being
too full, or to fall asleep from being too tired. Haha. But of course
the best part is giving of myself to others. I try my best to do
so,with what meager funds I have. But the greatest part. No matter how
meager the gift, the emotion from the receiver make everything spent
worth while.

I’m such a babbler sometimes.

I feel really at peace today, like things are right in the world. Contentment I suppose. I enjoy it when i get the chance.

My xanga will have a new header soon. I made it already, but I can’t
get it online due to technical difficulties. It’s positively beautiful.

I think I will shut up now as I have rambled on enough for a weeks worth of post. *smile*

Happiness to all of you

“Sitting all alone in this place

Even though we’re here face to face

There is nothing gone

But there’s something wrong

Can’t you see that I’m stuck here underneath

And you’re making it hard to breathe

So take a look around and tell me what you see

You’ll find me underneath

I know what to say but don’t know where to begin

The fear of losing you beneath my skin

Is there resolution for this pain that I’m in

Sitting all alone in this place

Even though we’re here face to face

There is nothing gone

But there’s something wrong”