Things in our country are tense right now. A lot has been going on the last few months and as someone who follows politics pretty closely, and who has been a pretty avid follower of it since I was in high school it’s all hit pretty close to home. I have seen a great deal of hate, sorrow, and ugliness in the days following the presidential election, and I feel the need to turn away from these things.
With some of the important holidays just around the corner I’ve felt it’s important to reflect on the things I’m thankful to have. Before I know it Alexandr will be three years old. His Birthday is in February, and I cannot believe he is growing so fast. His mind amazes me on a daily basis. My husband is my love light still and that flame burns with a ferocity that I’ve never known in life. I could look into his eyes for hours. Pretty sure he could do the same with me, though I cannot pass words from his lips in his absence, I think I could make a close appraisal of his level of affinity.
This year will find this house void of company come Thanksgiving. The sounds of my husbands voice and laughter will not be here. As a result, our footsteps shall not grace it’s floor either. Alexandr and I will do what most people do, and for once fit into a strange societal standard I’m not accustomed to meeting. We shall travel for the holiday. We will make new memories with my wonderful sister, and her beautiful children. We will forge fresh beginnings, and I’ll be invited into the warm and open arms of family. We’ll cook turkey, drink wine, and share our lives in a way we are not always able. I am grateful for the opportunity.
Not all people are as blessed as I, nor do they lead as warm and loving a life as I do.
I face challenges, with my health, and my sons.
I do not lay my head down at night worrying about the roof over my head, or if there will be food to eat in my home anymore, I do not worry if we will be able to provide an ample Christmas to our child. The contrary, I wonder where we will put the new gifts he will be provided!
I realize now more than ever, that the love, and family that I have, albeit small compared to some, is so warm and strong, that I could wrap up in it like a thick blanket, and carry it with me. It would shield me from so much harm if I would let it. That is a true blessing, and for it I am incredibly thankful.